Early Marriage

Would I ever get married at this age…um no. I think having to do that or even wanting to do that is ridiculous. God I can’t at all imagine being married at this age. It would just be so weird. Even if the person was my destiny and who I was bound to marry, I just could not do it. I want to be a kid right now and have not and go out and not think about having someone at my side or waiting for me at home. I want to party mess around do bad things and not have someone to hurt by doing that. I don’t even know if that makes since but that’s how it is. The things that married couples do are just not things I want to be doing. Period. This is why I am glad I am not part of some high society in Hartford or something, that gives me an arranged married and tells me when and where it will be and when I will have kids and how I will work. I could not imagine having that life. To me life would just suck having everything planned out for you and not having any choices.
If I had to get married right now out of force or religion and I grew up knowing it was going to happen and this is just the way it is I’m not sure how I would feel about that. I mean thinking about me now and how I can barely handle myself I can’t imagine having to deal with someone else’s problems all the time. Ha that may sound mean but hey it’s the truth. I try not to lie. Man I can barely think about going on a date with someone let alone marrying someone. No, no, no not now, not for a very, very long time. I mean one day yes but not now. So I think that maybe if I was raised that way and had no choice then I would be ok with it but in general I would rather not.